March 29th 2021
I kind of hate the saying “What doesn’t kill you makes you stronger”.
It doesn’t make you stronger from surviving, it scars you. The scars you see and feel each day are a constant reminder of whatever stupid shit got you into that situation in the first place.
All you can do is learn from it and move forward.
What makes you stronger is who you choose to have in your life as you move forward. That’s when you realize that the scars that were a terrible reminder become a story, a stepping stone from your past, that will continue to be there but now it hurts less.
Scars will heal, memories won’t, but that’s okay. You’ll be okay.
Tomorrow will always be better than yesterday. No matter how much we try to change the things that have been done and said, we just simply can’t. All we can do is look forward to tomorrow. No matter what happens in life, there will always be a tomorrow. I like to try and live my life knowing that pain never lasts. No matter how bad that pain may seem, it will pass. I know that in the moment, that pain seems like it will last forever, but the truth is that something or someone will come along and make the pain you’re experiencing just a memory. If things go well enough, it could become a memory that is eventually forgotten. There’s always hope. There’s always happiness. There’s always a reason to smile. So if you’re feeling down today, just know that your reason to smile is out there somewhere, even if it takes until tomorrow to find.
I had a dream
a wonderful dream
it was silent
but it was true,
I seen you there as radiant as the sun
and I was merely a man
but I would rather burn
than not reach out to you.
My soul escaped my body
but still I edged closer
unable to open my eyes
as I let our spirits clash,
my mind was adamant
I couldn’t be forced to subside
again I pushed forward
as my life had turned to ash.
So there I stood
casting an endless shadow behind me
knowing it would only get worse
I hoped I wouldn’t feel the pain,
but the darkness behind me diminished
as all I had been began to fade
in my heart I knew I’d rather hurt
than never have that chance again.
But that was just a dream.